New Job=New Life

The title speaks the truth my friends. My new job is fabulous. I love it love it love it. I am learning TONS of new stuff. I've been all cardiac and old people up until now, and now I'm young and mamas and babies. What could be better? Now I know some people are not excited about checking other women's hoohas, and I'm not either, but I am excited about helping them have a baby, and being there on the biggest most memorable day of their lives. THAT, I'm excited about. I'm also excited because these nurses in L&D do it all. The doctors show up sometimes at the end, sometimes not. I sit there in awe of the numerous stories of nurses delivering the babies. Could that really be ME? Would I panic? I hope not. It is, after all, what I'd like to do someday. Or is this now? Oh geez.

At the new hospital, which opens the first week of September, the birthing center won't have a NICU. This means we have to learn all the neonatal resussitation, meds, intubation, the whole lot. We don't have backup there. We just have to do it. I sit now in nervous silence....

Anyway, I'm enjoying each day I orient to this new baby world. I am overwhelmed by the responsibility that lies in wait of the more experienced self down the road (and it's really far down the road). Will I really be able to do this? The answer is yes.....because I have to, and that really is the push to do the things we can't imagine doing or don't think we can do. Because if you are the only one standing there when the baby isn't breathing, who else will do it? So study I must. I've been given a book to memorize. It's large, really large. But I have to, and I want to, but can I?

Self doubt looms. I think I'll shove it down deep and jump in. This is too exciting not to.

Stay tuned :)

Catching up

Hey y'all!

I'm so behind on blogging!!! I'll blame summer. Yes, that's it.

I'm sitting here in Lake Rathbun resort, typing happily on my NEW laptop from my awesome family, using free wireless, checking out the beautiful sunny day that awaits me, wondering....can it get any better than this?!

Today is my 27th birthday. I have so many things to be thankful for. And while I'm sure the quiet time my kids are giving me is a limited time offer this morning, I know I don't have the time or the page lengths to go into all that I am thankful for. But I do want to say, that lately, I'm sooo happy!

I keep going back in my mind to a blog post I wrote a few months ago where I was so sad...I was told I'd get this job in surgery and my current job was so horrible. I didn't think I could handle one more day. At the time, I wrote honestly. I was angry at God. I felt drug around on a string. I was frustrated that there weren't better horizons for me. If I just persevered...it all would work out in my favor right?? Right? Well, sort of...but not in my time of course.

I feel like I need to redeem myself post previous posting. That is, by saying, that I realize that I could use some help in the trusting department. I've always known this, really.

I've been working on a book. I love writing, and I've received encouragement after encouragement to pursue my dream. So I am. While writing a book sounds neat, it's difficult to tell people per se, in that, if you say that you are writing a book, it implies you think you have something worthwhile to say.....hmmmm....DO I? Eh, whatever. So what if I don't? I'm enjoying every minute of it.

Thanks to God, my family and friends, these 27 years have been fabulous! Although, 27 is creepily close to 30.....that's almost as old as my brother (and THAT'S old). Ha! Happy almost birthday Dan! :)

New start

Some of you know, some of you might not....I got a new job! I will be working on labor/delivery/recovery/postpartum at the new hospital. It opens in September, but I'll be training for labor at the main hospital starting next week. I'm really excited for this new job and I can't wait to get started. However, my mind has been trained into cardiac mode for some time now. I'm sure I'll need plenty of refreshers. No matter what, I'm pumped!!!!

Updates to follow of course!

Rainbows and Unicorns?

To build off of my brother Dan's best phrase (I think), sometimes it's not all rainbows and unicorns, but sometimes it is.

Agreed.

Today we got to spend some really good time together as a family. We went to the mall and ate Taco Johns. Yess... then we gave the girls piggy back rides through the mall and let them play for a bit at germworld. The look on Olivia's face was priceless when we showed her on the way out that she was actually too big to be in the play place now. Sad? Proud? Confused? How-could-this-be-happening type of look. Priceless.

We took long naps. We played outside with the pup. We watched a movie and ate hors'dourves. (Cheese and crackers, veggies and dip, and keylees (kiwis sophie style). We were clearly rule breakers going outside to the garage in the rain at 9:30 p.m. to play with the Rosie Pose, jump rope and ride bikes. Then we heard the fireworks in the distance. We ventured out in the rain to try and find them but couldn't. So we hopped in the car and raced to find the source, and find it we did. From the marina. So we parked and watched them and laughed at Sophie's hysteria. "That one was so close it blew my eyes out!" She was scolded for that one even though we were all laughing out loud at her.

So, it turns out that things can just be all sunshine, rainbows, unicorns and what not. I'll take it. Even on a rainy day.