These are my confessions

Usher....love him. Anyway, I need to confess something because I'm living in denial. What better way to do this than to make it known via blogger? Now I'm held accountable by you. Thanks!

I have slid the past two weeks with my diet and exercise and I feel like a total slob. Riding the wave of my high flying 16 lb. loss gave me a false sense of confidence and comfortableness...I felt better in my clothes, better in my life, pretty much overall better in every way. I've tried to figure out why I chose to sabotage myself these past two weeks and I'm not sure why. But I do know that I want to get back to the daily grind, back to self-control, back to self-love...it is an overwhelmingly happy place to be. So, let's forget (but not completely) the past two weeks and let's move on shall we?

Dear self:

Here are the reasons you and I want to lose the rest of this weight and be healthy:

-I want to not have diabetes or heart disease
-I want to be a good example for my daughters
-I love to run and I want to do that without dying
-I love to swim and I want to do that without making others want to die when they see me in my swimsuit
-I want to focus on my children when we're out and not how much cellulite I have on the back of my legs
-I want to enjoy shopping (I already do 16 lbs. lighter. Imagine 50!)
-I want to be comfortable with who I am
-I want my spirit to match my physique
-I want to honor myself and remember that I deserve to be healthy, I need it.

There. I got all that off my chest and I can refer back to it now. I'm inspired to do this by my friend Debbie's blog who I found today through Amy's blog who I met through Amy...anyway...she is also on the weight loss expedition and blogs about it nearly every week. I think I might need to do that as well. A constant reminder to me, a constant update to you, and an accountability (I do not want to have to post a 6 lb. gain for the world to read about). But I will...if it keeps me accountable.

My goal: 50 lbs. by August 19th
Total weight loss so far: 16 lbs.
The rest of the way= 34 lbs.

I've got a ways to go. I'll let you know where I'm at when I weigh in this week. Until then...keep me accountable. Just say no to going out to eat and milk. Milk is my obsession!!!!