Fundamentally flawed

Well, lucky for me...I'm used to being wrong. It makes the blow I feel when I realize I've been wrong much more tolerable.

There's a song that I think of often and it helps me chill out when I reflect on the amount of time I spend being wrong (yikes)...

It goes like this:

"Right To Be Wrong"

I've got a right to be wrong
My mistakes will make me strong
I'm stepping out into the great unknown
I'm feeling wings though I've never flown
I've got a mind of my own
I'm flesh and blood to the bone
I'm not made of stone
Got a right to be wrong
So just leave me alone

I've got a right to be wrong
I've been held down too long
I've got to break free
So I can finally breathe
I've got a right to be wrong
Got to sing my own song
I might be singing out of key
But it sure feels good to me
Got a right to be wrong
So just leave me alone

You're entitled to your opinion
But it's really my decision
I can't turn back I'm on a mission
If you care don't you dare blur my vision
Let me be all that I can be
Don't smother me with negativity
Whatever's out there waiting for me
I'm going to faced it willingly

I've got a right to be wrong
My mistakes will make me strong
I'm stepping out into the great unknown
I'm feeling wings though I've never flown
I've got a mind of my own
Flesh and blood to the bone
See, I'm not made of stone
I've got a right to be wrong
So just leave me alone

I've got a right to be wrong
I've been held down to long
I've got to break free
So I can finally breathe
I've got a right to be wrong
Got to sing my own song
I might be singing out of key
But it sure feels good to me
I've got a right to be wrong
So just leave me alone

Feel free to listen:

http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/jossstone/righttobewrong.html

When I hear this song and I sing along, I don't sing it to another person or to some bully persecutor. Not at all.

I'm the hardest on myself. There is no bigger critic of me (that I know of) than me. I criticize and analyze and terrorize myself. So when I sing "so just leave me alone"....I sing this to myself. Before I sound like I might have multiple personalities...I'll move along.

The point being, my last two blogs are super stupid. They revolved around a verse...the "ask anything in Jesus' name" verses...but my interpretation and understanding were fundamentally flawed. The depth of the flaws behind my theory runs Grand Canyon sized deep. Sigh....I thought of erasing them, but what good does that do exactly? It doesn't make the flaws disappear. It doesn't make the disappointment never happen. Nope...it doesn't.

And while it might be fun to explain why they are fundamentally flawed, I don't think I'm in the position to teach on this...

In my defense, I got all pumped up on this verse after a guest speaker at our church preached a sermon and encouraged us to try asking what we need in Jesus' name. Like I've said before, I'm easily swayed. When someone is excited...ME TOO!!! So, leave it to me to mis-take the whole deal, to misinterpret, to end up disappointed....which is the same response I've had to my previous "lifestyle change" workout plans that I embark upon. Disappointing...overall.

I've decided I can leave theology to the others in this world blessed with an understanding that I do not have. I've decided to try...decidedly....to understand that I've got a right to be wrong....and especially, to just leave me alone. Sometimes its nice to remind yourself that it's ok to be human. We never were perfect. We don't always get it. So, while I try and understand who God is, and what the nature of God really is, I suppose I shall stumble.

Luckily, God is there to pick me back up, slap a bandaid on my knee, and feed me ice cream.

And we're good to go.